Wait Until Tomorrow

Feb. 18, 2018

Yesterday was my orgasm day, after being denied for 2 weeks. I was looking forward to it all day. We started by me rubbing his body all over. I love doing that. Then I lightly teased the head of his cock with my fingers before asking him if I could put his cock in my mouth. Sometimes he makes me wait because he knows how desperate it makes me. He knows that sucking his cock, with no other stimulation, makes my pussy a creamy wet mess.

When he gave me permisdion, I started deliberately slow, licking just around the head for several minutes before slowly taking the length of him down my throat. I love hearing the moan escape over his lips.

John loves when I use my throat to tease the head of his cock. I was doing that mercifully and he had to pull me away several times so he wouldn’t cum. THAT is so empowering for this sub wife! Knowing I could make him shoot his load down my throat at anytime simply by not allowing him to pull my mouth off of his cock. But tonight is my night to orgasm, so I wasn’t about to make him cum! Finally, he said, you have to stop, I need a break. (Insert evil grin here). I begged him to try the denial with me. He has seen the benefits of my denial and I think it would help him take a more active role in my denial if he were also being denied. I promised him he would love it but he said he is not as strong willed as I am and he’d be in the bathroom jerking off at the end of our edging sessions. (Insert laughing face here).

We laid there for a while just enjoying each other’s bodies. Although 2 weeks is a short denial period, I was still extremely achy and needy. I knew it wouldn’t take long. He climbed on top of me and slowly slid his cock into me. We got into a really good rhythm. It didn’t take long until I felt the pleasure building. I was just getting ready to ask his permission to cum when he said, “I want you to wait until tomorrow.” And then he kissed me before I could protest.

I know that my reaction should have been complete frustration, instead I felt even more incredibly turned on. I love being told no, not now, or wait. Being submissive to him and having him control the most intimate part of me is exhilarating. When he felt my reaction and realized I wasn’t going to protest, he said he was going to reward my compliance and acceptance of his control. He started thrusting quicker and harder and my breathing became heavier as I felt the pleasure building up once again. I asked him to stop but he whispered in my ear, “cum for me.” One of the many benefits of orgasm denial is that when you are permitted to have one, it is infinitely more intense. He allowed me to experience many orgasms before finally satisfying his needs. He shot his load all over my breasts, face, and in my mouth. I love the taste of him.

After we recouped a bit and were lying there, John told me for the next week he wants me to have orgasms everyday. As many as I want and he wants me to send pictures of me giving myself orgasms while he’s at work. That’s my task for the next week. He told me I should enjoy this next week because when it’s over, it will be a long time before I experience another orgasm. He won’t give me a specific date or amount of time because he doesn’t want me to focus on the details. He just wants me to be free to enjoy entirely the achy, desperate neediness that’s going to consume my body. He said I need to remember that his pleasure is what matters and it gives him the most pleasure to know I’m always desperate for his touch. He wants me to crave the feel of him, to know that he’s going to use my body in everyway imaginable to satisfy his needs. Knowing this is what pleases me.

Good Girl Support Group: Sleep-gasms

Say No To The O: What would you like to discuss today?
quean-heather: Sleep-gasms.
Say No To The O: Sure. What about them?
quean-heather: I’ve had them periodically my entire adult life. I wake up because I’m having an orgasm. It’s wonderful.
sweetv83: Those are the best ever – I find if I haven’t been cumming I tend to wake up having one from a dream.
quean-heather: I’m usually humping the bed or rubbing myself as I’m waking up.
sweetv83: An ex-Dom told me perhaps that is the only time I really “need” to cum and the only time I should. 🤔🤔🤔

I am more eager to please my husband than before denial. Before, it wasn’t just about his pleasure; it was about mine too. Now my pleasure is attained from pleasing him. When I please him and he tells me I’m a good girl… I melt. I need nothing else.

@quean-heather (Say No To The O Member and Sister in Denial)

Good girl support group

say no to the o: Does anyone have anything to say?
quean-heather: I’m having a really hard time today. I want to cum so badly. I’m so achy and so needy. I’m afraid to even touch myself.😢
mizzyjulie1982: The sadist in me thinks you should be required to do 10 edges today with no clitoral stimulation, with no ruins. If you do ruin then 20 snaps on your clit.
2xshyblushingwife: Niiiiice, mizzyjulie1982.

Denial, My Truth

I was going through old pictures and text messages on my phone when I came across this message I sent to my husband soon after I first started orgasm denial.

At first, John thought I was out of my mind for wanting to give up orgasms but he humored me. I needed him to know that I was serious, that this is how I wanted to live life now as a woman and as his wife. We are still figuring things out as we go but today, he can definitely see the benefits of withholding my orgasms. Denial makes me feel like there is no amount of pleasure in this world that could be enough for him. I get wet thinking of ways I can please my husband. My frustration caused from being denied is one of those things that brings immense pleasure to this incredible man I married. Me asking for his permission to have an orgasm and him telling me no, empowers him and gives him pleasure. Him fucking another woman in front of me and her NOT having to ask his permission to cum, pleases him because he knows my pussy is dripping from being denied. He will fuck her like a beast and make her cum harder than she has in her life, because he is giving her what I can’t have. He’s giving her my orgasms, and that pleases him. This is not a game. This is not role playing. This is who we are. He does it for me and I do it for him, willingly and completely.

Does She Know?

We have a mutual friend. She’s beautiful. My husband sees her more often than I do. I’ve been encouraging him to flirt with her. John is bashful and has no game at all. I was shocked this past weekend as John was getting ready to go work on his schoolwork and he casually mentioned that he and Sarah had been texting the past several minutes. Instantly wet.

A couple of minutes passed and I got a message from him asking if we had plans on the 24th. NOPE! Even if we did, we don’t now! So on February 24th, my husband is taking Sarah to a concert. I’m staying home. I wonder is she knows…

Does she know…

  • That innocent text he sent her wasn’t so innocent
  • That I’m intentionally staying home so that she will feel comfortable to flirt with my husband
  • That my husband and I have fantasized about him fucking her
  • That one time while we were having sex, her name popped up on his caller ID and then he turned into a wild beast, fucking me like an untamed animal
  • That more than anything, I hope she and John get a hotel and have amazing sex the night of the concert
  • That while she is with my husband, I will be home alone, rubbing my clit fiercely
  • That I will not have an orgasm because I want her to have it
  • That I will suck her pussy juice off of his cock when he gets home

Does she know that she has my blessing to fuck my husband?

To Orgasm Or Not To Orgasm…An Update

Feb. 10, 2018

First, I’d like to sincerely thank all of you who sent me private messages when I wrote about my dilemma. I was surprised by the amount of people who actually took the time to read and respond to my post about whether or not I should have an orgasm.

After talking with some of you and getting some good advice, encouragement, and feedback, I had decided that I was going to honor my original denial goal of no orgasms for 2 months.

Things don’t always go as planned.

We were in bed and he was teasing me. I made sure I told him that I did not want to have an orgasm before we started. I was completely aroused. He was taking his time and truly enjoying every inch of my body. He lightly kissed me all over while gliding his hands up and down my body, spending extra time around my nipples.

When he noticed how sensitive I was when he paid attention to my breasts, he lingered there. The more he pinched, twisted, and squeezed my nipples, the more pulsing I felt in my pussy. I started moaning more and more. Then he slowly and very lightly started outling the edge of my pussy lips with his other hand.

I so desperately wanted him to separate my lips and rub my warm moist clit. I kept pushing into his hand, but he denied me his touch. He was relentless with my nipples and was using increasing force. My breathing became short and I could feel myself reaching the edge. I asked him to stop. He didn’t. I tried to push his hand away from my nipples. He wouldn’t. I begged him to stop. Then, with a calm and certain voice he said, “cum for me.” After 34 days of being denied an orgasm, I exploded. My orgasm was so intense and was caused completely from nipple stimulation. That has never happened to me.

I thought I would feel disappointed with myself for not achieving my 2 month denial goal, but I didn’t. The thing is, I gave my husband control of my orgasms because I trust him more than I’ve ever trusted anyone. He doesn’t always have time to play with me so I’m left to do most of the edging myself. I trust that my husband knows what’s best for me. He knows the difference between my wants and my needs. I didn’t want to have an orgasm, but he knew I needed to. I love him completely. He spent the rest of the night holding an extremely powerful vibe on my clit, forcing me to have orgasm after orgasm. This was my first experience with forced orgasms. It was incredible and it was awful. It stops feeling good after awhile. I was begging him to stop. He made me tell him that I never wanted another orgasm. He told me to remember how awful this was. Finally, he stopped. I’ve never been so happy to stop having orgasms. He told me that I could have the next day off but Tuesday I would start a 2 week denial period followed by a brief period of orgasms. That is to be followed by a long denial period. I asked how long and he said he wasn’t sure yet but it would be more than 34 days.

I want to thank all of you who are a part of my denial journey. Thanks to those of you who have encouraged me. A special thank you to those of you who spend the afternoons with me while I edge. I love those private messages❤