To Orgasm Or Not To Orgasm, That Is The Question.

Feb. 4 2018

34 days without an orgasm. To many of you, that’s nothing. To me, it’s quite a feat. I’ve never gone that long without an orgasm. I’m supposed to remain orgasm free until March 1. However, my husband is super busy with work and college and just doesn’t have time to participate in my denial. No time for sexting, naughty messages, or even much of an interest in sex at all through the week.

I am a brat. I need his attention and when I don’t get it, I have hurt feelings and am irritable. Denial was fun before classes started and my husband had time for me. It is no longer enjoyable. FOR ME, I need him to be involved. For those of you who practice denial and are not even in a relationship, you have my admiration.

I talked to John about all of this and he understands completely. We are going to have sex today and he said I can have an orgasm as long as I use our safe word. I want to. I don’t want to. I really don’t know what to do. Give in and feel like a failure, or keep going and be miserable. No matter how I look at it, it seems like a lose/lose.

Day 30

My brain: I love feeling needy, achy, and desperate! I never want to have another orgasm!

Also my brain: I hate feeling needy, achy, and desperate. If I don’t have an orgasm right now, I’m going to go insane.

My husband: Good girl.

😑

Giving Her My Orgasms

PART 2

Before leaving for work, John was extra affectionate with me, hugging me several times, kissing me, and telling me he loved me several times. Walking out the door he reminded to to be sure to follow my daily list of tasks. I went on with my morning routine of cleaning the house and doing laundry. I also threw dinner in the crockpot and made sure there were clean sheets on our bed. I was so nervous about Aubrey coming over and was experiencing a tremendous amount of jealously too. So many emotions. Why did the thought of John having sex with a young beautiful woman arouse me so much? Even now, thinking about it, made my pussy ache with desire. Ok, chores are finished. Now to find the perfect outfit. Just then I received a text from John saying that today was no different than any other day and he would expect me naked and in position when he got home from work. It also said that I should spend the rest of the day edging so that I would be ready for his inspection. I can’t believe he is expecting me to be naked in front of this young lady but I know not to question his orders. I was a good girl and did what I was told. Today’s edging session was…just wow! Thinking about John’s cock fucking a fresh young pussy almost sent me over the edge several times.

I heard John’s car pull up so I got in position. I was so humiliated. At least my face was hidden, for now. The door opened. I heard John say, “awww, there’s my good girl! Aubrey, this is my wife, Heather.” Then I heard a sweet young voice say, “you’re right, she does have a nice ass!” For some reason, after hearing her sweet voice, I felt more at ease. I heard footsteps walking towards me and then I felt fingers inspecting my pussy, only it wasn’t John’s fingers, it was Aubrey’s. She took her time and slid her fingers in and out of my wetness several times before removing them all together. She asked me to sit up. I looked at John for approval. He nodded his head and said that I will now take orders from Aubrey too. I sat up and Aubrey told me to suck my juice from her fingers.

I finally got to see her face. She was beautiful. Young, perky, soft, and sweet. She said, “hi, I’m Aubrey. It’s really nice to meet you. Thank you for sharing your husband with me. John says you’re going to give me your orgasms! I want you to know what a nice gift that is and I appreciate the gesture. She leaned in and kissed me. I could definitely see why John found her so appealing.

Aubrey then asked if we could eat dinner. She said she would help me serve but John interrupted and said that I would serve them. They went to the table and sat while I served. John told me to eat in the kitchen so that he and Aubrey could enjoy a quiet dinner alone. I obeyed. Sitting in the kitchen alone, naked, eating my dinner while my husband enjoyed a quiet, romantic, candlelit dinner with his girlfriend in the next room is nothing I ever would have expected. Yet here I was. After dinner we went to the bedroom. John wasted no time. He had placed a chair in front of the bed and told me to sit and watch. I obeyed. They started by kissing and slowly undressing one another. John then sat on the bed as Aubrey knelt down on the floor between his legs and took his already swollen cock into her mouth as he let out a gasp. She took the full length of him in and out of her mouth repeatedly but stopped as he was approaching the edge. She looked over at me and thanked me for allowing her to suck my husband’s cock and told me how much she enjoys it. She asked if I would prepare her pussy for my husband’s cock. I knew what she meant but I had never done that before. However, John said I was to take orders from her too now, so I obeyed.

I really didn’t know what I was doing so I just did what I thought would feel good if it were being done for me. I think it worked because Aubrey quickly climaxed with a powerful orgasm, her juices flowing into my mouth. She tasted so sweet. Almost like honey. She thanked me and then asked me to sit back in the chair so that my husband could fuck her. As I moved back into my chair, I could feel my own pussy juice sliding down the insides of my legs. I was so turned on. My pussy was aching for my husband’s touch, but that was no longer mine to enjoy. That now belonged to this sweet girl who I was having a harder and harder time not to like. She was so young and sexy, and tasted so sweet. I really liked her and I found myself sitting there, watching them as they made love, wanting to please her as much as I wanted to please my own husband. Aubrey moaned and whimpered as my husband skillfully fucked her into oblivion.

I could not resist the urge I had to rub Aubrey’s clit as my husband continued fucking her. I was giving her my orgasm so I wanted it to be incredible. She let out a cry of ecstasy as soon as she felt my finger between her legs. When John saw what I was doing, he too became overly excited. They both climaxed together. It was a beautiful moment. When Aubrey regained her composure, she asked me if I would like to suck my husband’s seed from her sopping wet pussy. I eagerly placed myself between her legs licking out every last drop. Then she told me I could lick her cum juice from my husband’s cock as well. I thanked her. I sucked my husband’s cock until it was completely soft in my mouth. Aubrey told me she was staying the night so I would be staying in the guest room. She told me she was going to lay with me until I fell asleep. As we lay there together, she gently caressed my body and slowly slid her hand between my legs. She used her fingers to bring me to a hard edge, commenting about how wet I was. She said she had considered allowing me to orgasm but that my frustration was arousing her. She licked my juice from her fingers, gave me a kiss, and went to my bedroom to fuck my husband again. She left the doors open so I could hear every sound.

Giving Her My Orgasms

PART 1

My husband decided a while ago that I no longer needed orgasms. He said that I would be a much better wife if I didn’t spend my time thinking about my own selfish pleasure. This would allow me to focus solely on his pleasure and his needs. I love my husband very much and I know that he has always known what’s been best for me. Once he makes a decision, I abide by it in order to honor him as my husband and his rightful place as the head of the family.

John leaves me a daily list of tasks to complete before he gets home from work. Edging the 3 hours before he gets home from work is always last on the list. He says that a good wife is always ready to be used by her husband if he felt like using her. When he arrived home, I was to be in position, which was on the floor of our entrance way, naked, head touching the floor, ass in the air facing the door. My Husband’s daily view after a long day of work is 2 of his wife’s waiting holes. He always slides 2 fingers into my pussy to make sure it’s properly wet. I lick his fingers clean. Last night, after his inspection of my pussy, John, said he had something to tell me and didn’t want me interrupting him and the best way for that to happen is for my mouth to be full of cock. So I got on my knees in front of him, undid his pants, and took his growing cock into my mouth. He handed me a vibrator and told me I could hold it on my clit while I blew him. He never allowed me to experience any kind of pleasure during blow jobs because he said that took my focus off of what was really important, which of course, was his pleasure. I was very confused but I wasn’t about to question him. After all, he is the man of the house. John watched as I sucked his cock and held the vibrator on my clit. He knew I was enjoying the sensations and I could tell it pleased him as a hint of a smile painted his face. John continued watching me and told me that he was going to be bringing home one of the new farm girls from work tomorrow and that I needed to prepare a special dinner for them. Her name was Aubrey and she was 22. I continued sucking his cock but was very confused. He went on to say that he would be fucking Aubrey after dinner in our bed and instructed me to make sure the sheets were clean. I started to take his cock out of my mouth to protest but he grabbed my head with both of his hands and forced his cock down the back of my throat and held it there. He told me to turn the vibe to the highest setting and to make sure it was pressed firmly against my clit. I complied.

He then began slowly fucking my mouth again. He told me that Aubrey was younger, thinner, and sexier than I was and he was sure her pussy would be good and tight, not used up and loose like mine. I started moaning with his cock in my mouth. He ordered me to remove the vibe from my clit. He said that I was pathetic for getting turned on over the thought of him fucking another woman, especially one so obviously superior to me. He began to speed up his rhythm before ordering me to the bedroom where I was instructed to get on my back. He took the vibe and put it back on my clit while fucking my pussy with 2 of his fingers. I was dripping. He removed his fingers and said he was happy I was so aroused and then slid his cock in my pussy. I moaned loudly. He felt so good inside me, but before I realized what was happening, he had removed his cock from my pussy and had slid it in my ass. He said that he was only using my pussy for lube. He lowered himself onto me so that he was able to kiss me. He told me that from now on, he would only be fucking my ass and mouth because his Aubrey is the only one who got to have cock in her pussy. His thrusts became stronger as his words were causing both of us to become more and more aroused. John said that he was going to allow me to have one final orgasm tonight but after tonight, all of my orgasms belonged to Aubrey. That was enough to push us both over the edge. John caressed my face as we both came down from our climaxes. He lovingly kissed me and told me he loved me. On his way to the bathrooom to clean up, John turned to look at me and said, “Be sure to make Aubrey feel welcome tomorrow night.”

Hitachi

I had seen them used in countless forced orgasm porn movies but I had no idea what they were or the magical power they possessed. Soon after my husband and I discovered FetLife and started meeting people, we were invited to an anything goes adult party. We had previously gone out to dinner with the host couple and had really hit it off. There were about 6 other couples at the party and a couple single people. Honestly, it was awkward for us because we are both uncomfortable in social situations, especially ones that might involve having sex with different people, in front of different people.

Guests were mingling and having snacks when the conversation turned towards a couple that was coming to the party a little later. This couple was more experienced in the lifestyle and their kinks went well beyond swinging. My husband and I are not swingers and have little interest in swinging, but you have to start somewhere. This couple was knowledgeable in fire play, they had gas masks, a massage table, and many other toys. Everyone at the party anxiously awaited their arrival. Cora and Bob lived up to their reputation! With introductions and small talk complete, Cora and Bob brought in all of their play equipment. The massage table was placed in the center of the room and the guests were seated all around, in the same room. There were many toys laid around. The female of the host couple, Amy, pointed to the wand and asked about it. Cora invited Amy to get naked, lie on the massage table, and she would give her a demonstration.

Amy seemed to be very at ease being naked in front of other people. She was a full figured woman and not one bit ashamed to show her body. I think she was beautiful. She positioned herself on the table. I was in awe of her, and a little jealous. I could never get naked in a room full of people all focused on me. Cora turned on the Hitachi and slowly glided it along Amy’s legs so she could feel the power it had before resting the wand between Amy’s legs. Everyone watched intently. I don’t even think anyone blinked. Very soon, Amy was squirming and moaning and seemed to have a very powerful orgasm. I was so turned on. I could feel the wetness between my legs. Cora asked who wanted to go next. My husband leaned over and encouraged me to give it a try. Amy was back beside me at this point and said, “you HAVE to do that” and she started undressing me. My mind was screaming noooooooo! I absolutely could not get naked in front of all these people. Amy and my husband both kissed me and ran their hands along my body and before I knew what was happening, I was naked and lying on the massage table. It felt like a dream, or a nightmare, I still wasn’t sure. I was so nervous. I knew there was no way I was going to be able to cum with all of these people watching me and unlike Amy, I was not comfortable having a little extra weight and being naked in front of people. My mind would not stop racing. Cora could tell I was anxious and encouraged me to focus on her. Her voice was so soothing and confident. She turned on the wand and let me feel the vibrations. She ran the Hitachi down over my nipples, down my stomach, over my hip and down my leg. She then, very slowly and expertly, moved the wand up between my legs. It rested on my clit. I think I saw God. I had never felt anything so incredible in my life. The pleasure was immediate. The room was empty except for me, Cora, and this magical pleasure stick. I could hear sounds escaping my lips that I’d never made before. I was moaning and whimpering in front of an audience and I didn’t care. I could feel the waves building. I knew I was going to explode very soon. Cora then pinched my nipple. That was it. Complete ecstasy as juice gushed from my pussy as I had the most intense orgasm of my life.

As I floated back into reality, I could hear the guests mumbling. The men were commenting how hot that was and the women all wanted a turn. That was my introduction to the Hitachi. I ordered one online that same night. I still use it but I am only allowed to edge with it now. No orgasms for me, but edging for hours with a Hitachi is beyond amazing.

Ruined

January 25, 2018

After completing the list of chores my husband left for me yesterday and then receiving proper permission from him, I spent the rest of the afternoon edging. I had my vibe resting on my clit as I scrolled through Tumblr reading about orgasm denial and looking at cuckquean captions. Thinking about my husband fucking another woman is such a turn on for me. I imagine him having sex with one of the farm girls bent over a bale of hay, or with one of the young college girls in his English class. Yeah…ok…I’m back. Before I knew what was happening, I felt myself tip over the edge. I immediately removed the vibe from my clit, ruining my orgasm. What should have been an enjoyable experience (because who doesn’t enjoy a ruin?????) was absolutely torturous. I do not lose self-control like that. EVER. I was so disappointed in my self. It was my first ruin since creating my contract forbidding ruins without my husband’s permission. I was ashamed the rest of the afternoon and dreaded telling him what I had done. I truly don’t understand it. I don’t lose control. What happened to me? So now, I await my punishment from my husband, but I know that none of the punishments on the contract are nearly as bad as the shame I already feel for losing control.

My Denial Contract

January 24, 2018

It’s finally complete. It hasn’t been signed yet but I just wanted to get everyone’s opinion. I worked hard on this contract and had input from my husband, of course, as well as some of my AWESOME followers and fellow denial friends. The punishments may not be as strict as some of you would prefer, but this contract had to be tailored to my needs and my desires. I am not a masochist so punishments involving pain would not have worked for me. I prefer mental punishments. I love the psychological aspect of all of this! THAT’S what gets my juices flowing!  Anyway…here it is. What do y’all think? Please forgive the format errors. Tumblr really messed up the copy and paste and I don’t see where it’s possible to add a document. I can add a GIF, text, audio file…etc but NO document. (Yes, I’m feeling a bit technologically challenged and a lot frustrated)

                                                      Orgasm Denial Contract

I, quean-heather, in recognition of the
negative impact orgasms have on my sustained mental health, my relationship
with my husband, and my overall well-being, as well as my desire to be a good
girl, hereby give written notice that I will and do relinquish complete and
permanent control of my orgasms to my husband, John aka swingeguy. I trust that
he knows what is best for me in all areas of my life, but especially anything
related to orgasms. I understand that orgasms are for men and that it is my
responsibility to always be aroused in the event that my husband, or any man of
his choosing, would want to me use for their sexual pleasure.

Before the composing of this contract, I had
written my goal of having no orgasm until March 1. My husband wants me to honor
the original contract because he encourages me to reach all of my goals in
life. I understand that my husband may, at any time, decide that do or do not
need an orgasm. I understand that my husband may determine that I am more proficient
as a wife when I am completely denied orgasms and may choose to never allow me
release again. I understand that my sexual frustration, achiness, and neediness
pleases and arouses my husband, and therefore, I will embrace those feelings of
longing for an orgasm.

I pledge that I will not have an orgasm of any
kind, whether it be accidental, ruined, or full without written (messenger,
text, chatting) or verbal permission from my husband. I pledge that I will edge myself to the point
right before orgasm for a minimum of 30 minutes daily. When time permits, I
will edge for up to 6 hours daily. Due to my hectic schedule, I will be
responsible for my edging sessions, but I must inform my husband before edging
to ensure it is in my best interest at that time.  Should I fail to honor my commitments or
violate the terms of this contract, I will immediately notify my husband and
request punishment, as defined by, but not limited to, those defined below.

Punishments

A period of no touch for a minimum of 1 day but
not to extend 3 days based of the severity of the offence. Severity will be
determined by John (Swingeguy)

A period of abstinence from any sexual contact
from John, including, but not limited to, vaginal, oral, and anal intercourse;
clitoral, vaginal, and anal stimulation through the use of John’s hands,
dildos, vibrators, or any other sexual adult toy. Length of time not to exceed
one week. This will be determined by the severity of the offense. Severity will
be determined by John (Swingeguy)

A period of edging with non-dominant hand only,
no toys to be used during punishment period. This punishment to be used for
minor offenses. Length of time to be determined by John (Swingeguy)

A period of abstinence from John’s cum (semen).
I will be denied the pleasure of John’s cum going down my throat, being shot
deep in my vaginal or anal cavities, or being deposited on any part of my body.
I will watch as he ejaculates and then be forced to use a towel to clean him.
If semen comes in contact with my skin at all, a more serious punishment will
then be implemented.

The application of lidocaine or orajel to the
clitoris 10 minutes

prior

to edging
or intercourse of any kind. Must be reapplied every 30 minutes. This punishment
may last a period of up to 3 days based on the severity of the offense.
Severity to be determined by John (Swingeguy).

A period of forced orgasms, not to exceed 60 minutes
in duration, during which time, I must beg not to have an orgasm.

The implementation of a 2 minute edging session
with a 30 minute break between sessions. This punishment can be used up to a
period of 1-3 days, depending on severity of the offense. Severity to be
determined by John (Swingeguy)

Writing 100 times, “I am nothing but a
worthless fuck toy. Worthless fuck toys don’t have orgasms.” 9.     
Degrading words written on my skin with
permanent marker, which is covered by clothing. Words to be chosen by John
(Swingeguy) A period of forced touching without being
allowed to edge. I will not be allowed to edge until I have circled my clit
with my finger a total of 1,000 – 3,000 times based on severity of offense. I
must count out every completed circle. No edging allowed until the completion
of this task. John (Swingeguy) will determine severity. 11.  
A period of being denied the use of a bra or
undies while in public. This punishment will last for a period of no longer
than 1 week. 

12.     
John (Swingeguy) may, at his discretion and at
any time, during any sexual intercourse or sexual playtime, implement the use
of clothespins attached to any of Heather’s body parts if he feels she is
getting too close to having an orgasm. He may also bite her, hard enough to
leave a bruise and hard enough to stop Heather from going over the edge.

The above punishments may also be given should
John (Swingeguy), feel, for any reason that I have misbehaved or been
disrespectful in any fashion. This will be determined by John (Swingeguy).

 

Failure to abide by and complete above
punishments will result in additional punishments.

 

 

Signed, ___________________________                Date: ___________________

                        Quean-heather           

(Wife of John and Say No To The O Member, Good Girl, and Sister in
Denial)

 

Signed, ____________________________                Date: ___________________

                        John
(Swingeguy)

(Husband of quean-heather and holder of her orgasms)  

The terms of this contract will continue for 90 days, ending on
April 23, 2018. Terms will be reevaluated at that time and a new, more
permanent contract will be signed at that time.