I’m feeling extremely subby today, like I just need a man to strip me down, put a collar on me, and control the fuck right out of me. Bring me to the edge of orgasm over and over, for hours. Make me beg him to allow me to cum, and then smack my face for asking. Then making me tell him that I don’t want to cum every time I feel like I’m going to. Saying the words, “I don’t want to have an orgasm, Sir, please don’t let me cum.” I want him to use my mouth for his pleasure and then leave me tied to the bed as he leaves the wand bound to my pussy, forcing me to have orgasm after orgasm until they are no longer enjoyable, and then leaving me there for 2 more hours. When the torture stops, he tells me I will never be allowed to have another orgasm. Now where can I find this man?
To Orgasm Or Not To Orgasm…An Update
Feb. 10, 2018
First, I’d like to sincerely thank all of you who sent me private messages when I wrote about my dilemma. I was surprised by the amount of people who actually took the time to read and respond to my post about whether or not I should have an orgasm.
After talking with some of you and getting some good advice, encouragement, and feedback, I had decided that I was going to honor my original denial goal of no orgasms for 2 months.
Things don’t always go as planned.
We were in bed and he was teasing me. I made sure I told him that I did not want to have an orgasm before we started. I was completely aroused. He was taking his time and truly enjoying every inch of my body. He lightly kissed me all over while gliding his hands up and down my body, spending extra time around my nipples.
When he noticed how sensitive I was when he paid attention to my breasts, he lingered there. The more he pinched, twisted, and squeezed my nipples, the more pulsing I felt in my pussy. I started moaning more and more. Then he slowly and very lightly started outling the edge of my pussy lips with his other hand.
I so desperately wanted him to separate my lips and rub my warm moist clit. I kept pushing into his hand, but he denied me his touch. He was relentless with my nipples and was using increasing force. My breathing became short and I could feel myself reaching the edge. I asked him to stop. He didn’t. I tried to push his hand away from my nipples. He wouldn’t. I begged him to stop. Then, with a calm and certain voice he said, “cum for me.” After 34 days of being denied an orgasm, I exploded. My orgasm was so intense and was caused completely from nipple stimulation. That has never happened to me.
I thought I would feel disappointed with myself for not achieving my 2 month denial goal, but I didn’t. The thing is, I gave my husband control of my orgasms because I trust him more than I’ve ever trusted anyone. He doesn’t always have time to play with me so I’m left to do most of the edging myself. I trust that my husband knows what’s best for me. He knows the difference between my wants and my needs. I didn’t want to have an orgasm, but he knew I needed to. I love him completely. He spent the rest of the night holding an extremely powerful vibe on my clit, forcing me to have orgasm after orgasm. This was my first experience with forced orgasms. It was incredible and it was awful. It stops feeling good after awhile. I was begging him to stop. He made me tell him that I never wanted another orgasm. He told me to remember how awful this was. Finally, he stopped. I’ve never been so happy to stop having orgasms. He told me that I could have the next day off but Tuesday I would start a 2 week denial period followed by a brief period of orgasms. That is to be followed by a long denial period. I asked how long and he said he wasn’t sure yet but it would be more than 34 days.
I want to thank all of you who are a part of my denial journey. Thanks to those of you who have encouraged me. A special thank you to those of you who spend the afternoons with me while I edge. I love those private messages❤
Hitachi
I had seen them used in countless forced orgasm porn movies but I had no idea what they were or the magical power they possessed. Soon after my husband and I discovered FetLife and started meeting people, we were invited to an anything goes adult party. We had previously gone out to dinner with the host couple and had really hit it off. There were about 6 other couples at the party and a couple single people. Honestly, it was awkward for us because we are both uncomfortable in social situations, especially ones that might involve having sex with different people, in front of different people.
Guests were mingling and having snacks when the conversation turned towards a couple that was coming to the party a little later. This couple was more experienced in the lifestyle and their kinks went well beyond swinging. My husband and I are not swingers and have little interest in swinging, but you have to start somewhere. This couple was knowledgeable in fire play, they had gas masks, a massage table, and many other toys. Everyone at the party anxiously awaited their arrival. Cora and Bob lived up to their reputation! With introductions and small talk complete, Cora and Bob brought in all of their play equipment. The massage table was placed in the center of the room and the guests were seated all around, in the same room. There were many toys laid around. The female of the host couple, Amy, pointed to the wand and asked about it. Cora invited Amy to get naked, lie on the massage table, and she would give her a demonstration.
Amy seemed to be very at ease being naked in front of other people. She was a full figured woman and not one bit ashamed to show her body. I think she was beautiful. She positioned herself on the table. I was in awe of her, and a little jealous. I could never get naked in a room full of people all focused on me. Cora turned on the Hitachi and slowly glided it along Amy’s legs so she could feel the power it had before resting the wand between Amy’s legs. Everyone watched intently. I don’t even think anyone blinked. Very soon, Amy was squirming and moaning and seemed to have a very powerful orgasm. I was so turned on. I could feel the wetness between my legs. Cora asked who wanted to go next. My husband leaned over and encouraged me to give it a try. Amy was back beside me at this point and said, “you HAVE to do that” and she started undressing me. My mind was screaming noooooooo! I absolutely could not get naked in front of all these people. Amy and my husband both kissed me and ran their hands along my body and before I knew what was happening, I was naked and lying on the massage table. It felt like a dream, or a nightmare, I still wasn’t sure. I was so nervous. I knew there was no way I was going to be able to cum with all of these people watching me and unlike Amy, I was not comfortable having a little extra weight and being naked in front of people. My mind would not stop racing. Cora could tell I was anxious and encouraged me to focus on her. Her voice was so soothing and confident. She turned on the wand and let me feel the vibrations. She ran the Hitachi down over my nipples, down my stomach, over my hip and down my leg. She then, very slowly and expertly, moved the wand up between my legs. It rested on my clit. I think I saw God. I had never felt anything so incredible in my life. The pleasure was immediate. The room was empty except for me, Cora, and this magical pleasure stick. I could hear sounds escaping my lips that I’d never made before. I was moaning and whimpering in front of an audience and I didn’t care. I could feel the waves building. I knew I was going to explode very soon. Cora then pinched my nipple. That was it. Complete ecstasy as juice gushed from my pussy as I had the most intense orgasm of my life.
As I floated back into reality, I could hear the guests mumbling. The men were commenting how hot that was and the women all wanted a turn. That was my introduction to the Hitachi. I ordered one online that same night. I still use it but I am only allowed to edge with it now. No orgasms for me, but edging for hours with a Hitachi is beyond amazing.
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