Shame On Me

5/6/18

After 68 days without an orgasm, my emotions got the best of me. I gave in. I caved. Surrendered. I love the idea of permanent orgasm denial. The thought of it excites me but I just can’t handle the reality. I had an orgasm last night. It was incredible. I mean body shaking, mind shattering, take your breath away amazing.

I was on top, we had a good rhythm going. It was feeling so good. Then it happened. I lifted up a little too far and when I came back down, his cock went right in my ass and I turn into a dirty minded, fuck me in the ass, little slut. I started moving faster. I was going to cum. To my credit, I did try to stop but my husband growled in my ear, “just cum!” I am an obedient wife after all.

My husband had intended on continuing after I had my orgasm but I guess him hearing, seeing, and feeling me orgasm after 68 days got the best of him. My evening ended with an ass full of his cum. Perfect.

I expected today to feel a drop in arousal and mood but it hasn’t happened yet. I think I learned that long term denial, as arousing an idea that it is, is just not for me. I will be taking a short break from denial and when I’m ready to start again, it will be shorter denial periods for this girl.

I’m sure some of you will be disappointed for me. Please don’t be. I’m really ok with this and feel good about my decision. Some of you might be disappointed IN me. Well that makes me sad so go away😊

Any Volunteers?

I don’t really want to wait 23 more days to have an orgasm. This has been an ongoing issue the duration of my denial. He’s too busy with school and work. School especially must take priority right now. I get it! But that doesn’t change the fact that denial is not enjoyable for me if I am all alone in it. I’ve been thinking about cumming. I was wondering if anyone would like to help me with that?

Imagine

5/2/18

Imagine him intimately caressing another woman, sending chills up her spine as his fingers barely touch her skin.

Imagine him softly and deeply kissing another woman as she willingly accepts the taste of him on her lips.

Imagine him, for the first time since you’ve been with him, rubbing another woman’s pussy. You haven’t had an orgasm in months, but he’s about to give her the first of many tonight.

Imagine his fingers, fingers that have only touched you for years, sliding in and out of her pussy and ass, simultaneously, pleasure slowly building and giving her another orgasm. Her juices going all over his hand.

Imagine. His tongue exploring her clit. Small gentle circles around her magic button. Taking his time. Savoring the sweet taste of her in his mouth. She cums again.

Imagine your husband, having lost every thought of you, lies there in ecstasy as she delicately licks his balls, teasing him, the anticipation of having his cock in another woman’s mouth.

Close your eyes and imagine this moment. The head of his rock hard cock pressed firmly against the opening of her wet and waiting pussy. Ready to feel his cock inside another woman for the first time in years. Thrusting slowly. Claiming her.

Imagine him slowly grinding into her, escalating her pleasure. She’s about to have another orgasm. This time, her pussy will clench onto your husband’s cock. He wants to cum, but he’s not finished yet.

Imagine him fucking her like you don’t even exist. Like a beast claiming his prey. Growling loudly as he sprays his seed deep inside her body. She whimpers like the true beauty she is. A real woman. Taking your husband’s cum as she too has one final and mind-blowing orgasm.

Imagine all of these things and then do what a desperately denied cuckquean does. Rub your pussy right to the edge. How long can you ride it without going over? Remember Quean, orgasms are for your husband’s cuckcakes!

I don’t want a threesome. I’m not interested in being a swinger. What I want is to discreetly watch my husband lost in ecstasy as he intimately pleases another woman. I don’t want to be their fluffer girl. My husband is an expert at preparing a woman for sex. He doesnt need me for that! She will have several orgasms before his cock is even inside her for the first time. He is doing this for me but I don’t want him distracted by me. I want them to get lost in each other. I want to hear her moaning, knowing that my husband is the reason for her pleasure. Most of all, I want to watch him as his pleasure builds and he turns from a sweet and passionate lover into a sexual beast, growling as he explodes deep into her pussy. I want to see the heavy breathing as they cling to each other, completely satisfied, as I remain a desperate and achy mess.

When one sense is taken away, the others become more heightened. Tonight you will not watch me fuck your husband. You’ve already seen that many times. Tonight you will listen to our moans and the sound of our bodies coming together, becoming one. Your pussy will feel the throbbing ache of desperation as you listen to your man give me orgasm after orgasm while you sit there denied and unable to touch yourself. You will smell the sweet aroma of my younger tighter pussy as your husband’s cum falls out of me and into your mouth. You will feel more pathetic than ever because as jealous as you will be, you will not want it to end. You will beg me to fuck your husband because you know that your desperation feeds his insatiable desire for me.