I was going through old pictures and text messages on my phone when I came across this message I sent to my husband soon after I first started orgasm denial.
At first, John thought I was out of my mind for wanting to give up orgasms but he humored me. I needed him to know that I was serious, that this is how I wanted to live life now as a woman and as his wife. We are still figuring things out as we go but today, he can definitely see the benefits of withholding my orgasms. Denial makes me feel like there is no amount of pleasure in this world that could be enough for him. I get wet thinking of ways I can please my husband. My frustration caused from being denied is one of those things that brings immense pleasure to this incredible man I married. Me asking for his permission to have an orgasm and him telling me no, empowers him and gives him pleasure. Him fucking another woman in front of me and her NOT having to ask his permission to cum, pleases him because he knows my pussy is dripping from being denied. He will fuck her like a beast and make her cum harder than she has in her life, because he is giving her what I can’t have. He’s giving her my orgasms, and that pleases him. This is not a game. This is not role playing. This is who we are. He does it for me and I do it for him, willingly and completely.
Does She Know?
We have a mutual friend. She’s beautiful. My husband sees her more often than I do. I’ve been encouraging him to flirt with her. John is bashful and has no game at all. I was shocked this past weekend as John was getting ready to go work on his schoolwork and he casually mentioned that he and Sarah had been texting the past several minutes. Instantly wet.
A couple of minutes passed and I got a message from him asking if we had plans on the 24th. NOPE! Even if we did, we don’t now! So on February 24th, my husband is taking Sarah to a concert. I’m staying home. I wonder is she knows…
Does she know…
That innocent text he sent her wasn’t so innocent
That I’m intentionally staying home so that she will feel comfortable to flirt with my husband
That my husband and I have fantasized about him fucking her
That one time while we were having sex, her name popped up on his caller ID and then he turned into a wild beast, fucking me like an untamed animal
That more than anything, I hope she and John get a hotel and have amazing sex the night of the concert
That while she is with my husband, I will be home alone, rubbing my clit fiercely
That I will not have an orgasm because I want her to have it
That I will suck her pussy juice off of his cock when he gets home
Does she know that she has my blessing to fuck my husband?
Giving Her My Orgasms
PART 2
Before leaving for work, John was extra affectionate with me, hugging me several times, kissing me, and telling me he loved me several times. Walking out the door he reminded to to be sure to follow my daily list of tasks. I went on with my morning routine of cleaning the house and doing laundry. I also threw dinner in the crockpot and made sure there were clean sheets on our bed. I was so nervous about Aubrey coming over and was experiencing a tremendous amount of jealously too. So many emotions. Why did the thought of John having sex with a young beautiful woman arouse me so much? Even now, thinking about it, made my pussy ache with desire. Ok, chores are finished. Now to find the perfect outfit. Just then I received a text from John saying that today was no different than any other day and he would expect me naked and in position when he got home from work. It also said that I should spend the rest of the day edging so that I would be ready for his inspection. I can’t believe he is expecting me to be naked in front of this young lady but I know not to question his orders. I was a good girl and did what I was told. Today’s edging session was…just wow! Thinking about John’s cock fucking a fresh young pussy almost sent me over the edge several times.
I heard John’s car pull up so I got in position. I was so humiliated. At least my face was hidden, for now. The door opened. I heard John say, “awww, there’s my good girl! Aubrey, this is my wife, Heather.” Then I heard a sweet young voice say, “you’re right, she does have a nice ass!” For some reason, after hearing her sweet voice, I felt more at ease. I heard footsteps walking towards me and then I felt fingers inspecting my pussy, only it wasn’t John’s fingers, it was Aubrey’s. She took her time and slid her fingers in and out of my wetness several times before removing them all together. She asked me to sit up. I looked at John for approval. He nodded his head and said that I will now take orders from Aubrey too. I sat up and Aubrey told me to suck my juice from her fingers.
I finally got to see her face. She was beautiful. Young, perky, soft, and sweet. She said, “hi, I’m Aubrey. It’s really nice to meet you. Thank you for sharing your husband with me. John says you’re going to give me your orgasms! I want you to know what a nice gift that is and I appreciate the gesture. She leaned in and kissed me. I could definitely see why John found her so appealing.
Aubrey then asked if we could eat dinner. She said she would help me serve but John interrupted and said that I would serve them. They went to the table and sat while I served. John told me to eat in the kitchen so that he and Aubrey could enjoy a quiet dinner alone. I obeyed. Sitting in the kitchen alone, naked, eating my dinner while my husband enjoyed a quiet, romantic, candlelit dinner with his girlfriend in the next room is nothing I ever would have expected. Yet here I was. After dinner we went to the bedroom. John wasted no time. He had placed a chair in front of the bed and told me to sit and watch. I obeyed. They started by kissing and slowly undressing one another. John then sat on the bed as Aubrey knelt down on the floor between his legs and took his already swollen cock into her mouth as he let out a gasp. She took the full length of him in and out of her mouth repeatedly but stopped as he was approaching the edge. She looked over at me and thanked me for allowing her to suck my husband’s cock and told me how much she enjoys it. She asked if I would prepare her pussy for my husband’s cock. I knew what she meant but I had never done that before. However, John said I was to take orders from her too now, so I obeyed.
I really didn’t know what I was doing so I just did what I thought would feel good if it were being done for me. I think it worked because Aubrey quickly climaxed with a powerful orgasm, her juices flowing into my mouth. She tasted so sweet. Almost like honey. She thanked me and then asked me to sit back in the chair so that my husband could fuck her. As I moved back into my chair, I could feel my own pussy juice sliding down the insides of my legs. I was so turned on. My pussy was aching for my husband’s touch, but that was no longer mine to enjoy. That now belonged to this sweet girl who I was having a harder and harder time not to like. She was so young and sexy, and tasted so sweet. I really liked her and I found myself sitting there, watching them as they made love, wanting to please her as much as I wanted to please my own husband. Aubrey moaned and whimpered as my husband skillfully fucked her into oblivion.
I could not resist the urge I had to rub Aubrey’s clit as my husband continued fucking her. I was giving her my orgasm so I wanted it to be incredible. She let out a cry of ecstasy as soon as she felt my finger between her legs. When John saw what I was doing, he too became overly excited. They both climaxed together. It was a beautiful moment. When Aubrey regained her composure, she asked me if I would like to suck my husband’s seed from her sopping wet pussy. I eagerly placed myself between her legs licking out every last drop. Then she told me I could lick her cum juice from my husband’s cock as well. I thanked her. I sucked my husband’s cock until it was completely soft in my mouth. Aubrey told me she was staying the night so I would be staying in the guest room. She told me she was going to lay with me until I fell asleep. As we lay there together, she gently caressed my body and slowly slid her hand between my legs. She used her fingers to bring me to a hard edge, commenting about how wet I was. She said she had considered allowing me to orgasm but that my frustration was arousing her. She licked my juice from her fingers, gave me a kiss, and went to my bedroom to fuck my husband again. She left the doors open so I could hear every sound.
Giving Her My Orgasms
PART 1
My husband decided a while ago that I no longer needed orgasms. He said that I would be a much better wife if I didn’t spend my time thinking about my own selfish pleasure. This would allow me to focus solely on his pleasure and his needs. I love my husband very much and I know that he has always known what’s been best for me. Once he makes a decision, I abide by it in order to honor him as my husband and his rightful place as the head of the family.
John leaves me a daily list of tasks to complete before he gets home from work. Edging the 3 hours before he gets home from work is always last on the list. He says that a good wife is always ready to be used by her husband if he felt like using her. When he arrived home, I was to be in position, which was on the floor of our entrance way, naked, head touching the floor, ass in the air facing the door. My Husband’s daily view after a long day of work is 2 of his wife’s waiting holes. He always slides 2 fingers into my pussy to make sure it’s properly wet. I lick his fingers clean. Last night, after his inspection of my pussy, John, said he had something to tell me and didn’t want me interrupting him and the best way for that to happen is for my mouth to be full of cock. So I got on my knees in front of him, undid his pants, and took his growing cock into my mouth. He handed me a vibrator and told me I could hold it on my clit while I blew him. He never allowed me to experience any kind of pleasure during blow jobs because he said that took my focus off of what was really important, which of course, was his pleasure. I was very confused but I wasn’t about to question him. After all, he is the man of the house. John watched as I sucked his cock and held the vibrator on my clit. He knew I was enjoying the sensations and I could tell it pleased him as a hint of a smile painted his face. John continued watching me and told me that he was going to be bringing home one of the new farm girls from work tomorrow and that I needed to prepare a special dinner for them. Her name was Aubrey and she was 22. I continued sucking his cock but was very confused. He went on to say that he would be fucking Aubrey after dinner in our bed and instructed me to make sure the sheets were clean. I started to take his cock out of my mouth to protest but he grabbed my head with both of his hands and forced his cock down the back of my throat and held it there. He told me to turn the vibe to the highest setting and to make sure it was pressed firmly against my clit. I complied.
He then began slowly fucking my mouth again. He told me that Aubrey was younger, thinner, and sexier than I was and he was sure her pussy would be good and tight, not used up and loose like mine. I started moaning with his cock in my mouth. He ordered me to remove the vibe from my clit. He said that I was pathetic for getting turned on over the thought of him fucking another woman, especially one so obviously superior to me. He began to speed up his rhythm before ordering me to the bedroom where I was instructed to get on my back. He took the vibe and put it back on my clit while fucking my pussy with 2 of his fingers. I was dripping. He removed his fingers and said he was happy I was so aroused and then slid his cock in my pussy. I moaned loudly. He felt so good inside me, but before I realized what was happening, he had removed his cock from my pussy and had slid it in my ass. He said that he was only using my pussy for lube. He lowered himself onto me so that he was able to kiss me. He told me that from now on, he would only be fucking my ass and mouth because his Aubrey is the only one who got to have cock in her pussy. His thrusts became stronger as his words were causing both of us to become more and more aroused. John said that he was going to allow me to have one final orgasm tonight but after tonight, all of my orgasms belonged to Aubrey. That was enough to push us both over the edge. John caressed my face as we both came down from our climaxes. He lovingly kissed me and told me he loved me. On his way to the bathrooom to clean up, John turned to look at me and said, “Be sure to make Aubrey feel welcome tomorrow night.”
After completing the list of chores my husband left for me yesterday and then receiving proper permission from him, I spent the rest of the afternoon edging. I had my vibe resting on my clit as I scrolled through Tumblr reading about orgasm denial and looking at cuckquean captions. Thinking about my husband fucking another woman is such a turn on for me. I imagine him having sex with one of the farm girls bent over a bale of hay, or with one of the young college girls in his English class. Yeah…ok…I’m back. Before I knew what was happening, I felt myself tip over the edge. I immediately removed the vibe from my clit, ruining my orgasm. What should have been an enjoyable experience (because who doesn’t enjoy a ruin?????) was absolutely torturous. I do not lose self-control like that. EVER. I was so disappointed in my self. It was my first ruin since creating my contract forbidding ruins without my husband’s permission. I was ashamed the rest of the afternoon and dreaded telling him what I had done. I truly don’t understand it. I don’t lose control. What happened to me? So now, I await my punishment from my husband, but I know that none of the punishments on the contract are nearly as bad as the shame I already feel for losing control.
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Deliciously Denied Cuckquean
I got a new toy yesterday. It stimulates both the g spot and the clit simultaneously and the vibrations are controlled by my husband from his smartphone. It’s wonderful. So, yesterday was day 10 of my 2 month orgasm denial. I am constantly aroused and dripping wet. My pussy literally aches to be touched. It’s very difficult to concentrate on anything besides the needy slit between my legs.
I sent my husband a text asking if I could please suck his cock and swallow his cum when he got home from work. He replied that he would think about it and that I should find some good porn for him to watch in case he allows me the pleasure of his cock in my mouth. After reading that message, I had to go to the bathroom at work and rub my clit for a minute.
When he got home from work, John instructed me to show him the porn I found for him to watch. He told me I had done a good job and decided he would allow me to suck his cock, but first I had to insert my new toy into my pussy. John put the vibe on the lowest setting and reminded me that I’m not allowed to cum without his permission as he pushed my head onto his hard cock.
Since I’ve started this journey into orgasm denial, I have discovered that I love sucking cock. I love when he pushes me all the way down on it and makes me gag, but the best part is when I get to taste his cum. That is something I never enjoyed but now I can’t seem to get enough. I don’t waste a single drop. That would be disrespectful to my husband. I continued enjoying his fullness in my mouth as he watched his porn. John began squeezing my butt. He knows that drives me crazy and makes me crave the feel of his throbbing cock sliding into my ass. This caused me to suck and lick his dick with even more eagerness. John told me to look at him and then said, “I bet you’d like me to put my finger in your asshole, wouldn’t you?” As the vibration on my clit continued, John’s words caused me to feel the beginning of an orgasm. I started to moan. His stern voice reminded me that I’m not allowed to cum and he slapped my ass. Hard! I begged him to fuck my ass with his finger but he refused, saying that I was getting too worked up. Instead, he used his finger to rub all around the outside of my hole and told me I was a needy slut.
He also told me that if I couldn’t control myself, he would stop allowing me to suck his cock at all. I told him I would be good and that I would control myself. I explained that I was having a hard time because I had gone so long without an orgasm. Only 10 days but that’s longer than I’ve ever gone since I first started having orgasms. John gently carressed my face and said, “it must be very hard for you to be so needy all of the time, especially since I get to have an orgasm whenever I want. I get to experience the relief that an orgasm brings. Oh, it feels so good! Orgasms are so nice! We talked about this and you said you understood that your role is to always be wet and ready for me to use because my pleasure is all that matters. So far you have done a great job of staying needy for me. In fact, your pussy seems to drip more with each passing day. That pleases me and I know how much you want to please me. You know that your pleasure comes from giving me pleasure. Now roll onto your side, my love, because I’m going to fuck your pussy. That’s right, mmmmmmmm, good girl. Oh baby, your wet pussy feels so good wrapped around my cock. Fuck!” He fucked me like a savage animal.
One of the nice things about my new toy is that it can stay in during sex. This, of course, adds to the pleasure and makes it even more difficult not to cum. John knew I was having a hard time controlling myself so he fucked me harder and harder, thrusting deep into my pussy. His face was filled with desire and passion. He turns into a sexual beast in the bedroom. I am so lucky to have him. I really do want to give him all the pleasure he deserves, even if that means I never get to cum again. Mmmmm all these thoughts are bringing me to the edge. I’m so close. I begged him to let me cum. He laughed at me as he pulled his cock from my soaked pussy and said, “You haven’t even come close to earning an orgasm, my sweet slut. Now, suck my cock and taste your pussy juice. Get used to pussy because once I find a cuckcake, you’re going to be my fluff girl.
You’re going to lick her pussy and get her ready for my cock and after I’ve fucked her good and made her have orgasm after orgasm, you’re going to suck my cum from her pussy and then you’re going to lick her juice from my cock. In fact, that’s the only way you’ll ever get my cock in your mouth. You will be kept denied. All of your orgasms will be given to my cuckcake. You will serve as our clean up girl” I could tell that he was getting closer to blowing his load as he kept talking. With his cock deep in my mouth, he shot his load down my throat. I kept it there and savored the feel of him in my mouth until every last drop of his cum was in my stomach.
I continued to suck his cock until it was soft. I was so aroused. I told John the I really needed to have an orgasm. As a tear rolled down my face, he told me that since I was careful not to spill a single drop of his cum, that he would allow me to hump his leg for 2 minutes and if I could bring myself to orgasm, he would allow it. First though, I had to remove the toy from my pussy, which was now numb from the constant vibration on my clit. I humped his leg but was unable to even get to an edge.
He said, “awwww, that’s too bad, baby. I know how desperate you’ve been for an orgasm. We can try again next month. Maybe 30 more days of denial will make you more desperate.” He kissed me and went to get a shower, leaving me a dripping mess on the bed.
Desire, Love, and Denial
I discovered Tumblr about 1 month ago as I was searching the internet for information about the all elusive cuckquean lifestyle. I was so grateful to find out I wasn’t the only woman who truly fantasized about her husband having sex with another woman. This fantasy, for me, has even more layers though. Not only do I want to watch him with another woman, I want him to tell me that she feels better than me. I want him to compare us and tell me how inadequate I am. I want him to thoroughly be consumed with the pleasure he is being given by someone thinner, younger, and prettier than me while I watch. I want my hands to be tied so that I can’t touch myself while he makes another woman cum. I want to be completely denied any orgasm. When they are finished, I want to be made to sleep on the floor beside MY bed while they cuddle to sleep.
All of this, so far, is just a fantasy because those cuckcakes, if they really do exist, are impossible to find.
In any case, Tumblr has been a great Avenue for me to explore many different fantasies as well as find new ones. I have been reading about female orgasm denial. At first I thought, THESE WOMEN ARE OUT OF THEIR MINDS. However, the more I read, the more intrigued I became and all of a sudden, I would notice that I would become aroused at the thought of not having an orgasm. I started talking to my husband about it. At first, he too thought I had lost my mind. We have a great sex life and he loves making me cum. He is a superior lover and has never left me disappointed. He could not comprehend not pleasing me. It took some convincing, but I finally talked him into trying. The first go round, I made it to 5 days. I was weak and untrained. We went to a beautiful old stone bridge, in a snowstorm, and he fingered me to an incredible orgasm.
It was something we had never done before, so I enjoyed it, but that feeling was soon replaced with disappointment in myself for only lasting 5 days. Now I am on round 2 and I have made it 7 days without an orgasm. The other night, my husband and I were making love. It was filled with passion. I’m so aroused all the time now. We were lying in bed and he started slowly and lightly running his fingers against my pussy on the outside of my undies. I absolutely love that.
He knows how to bring me right to the edge and then stops, leaving me dripping and craving more of his touch. One thing I’ve discovered since beginning my journey of denial, is how much I now enjoy sucking my husband’s cock and swallowing him cum. Almost like I depend on his cum as much as I depend on food. It nourishes my very being. I am eager to take him into my mouth and to please him. I really do derive intense pleasure when I hear my husband moan or feel him thrust his hips, forcing his cock deeper into my mouth. He likes when I take my time and lavish him with love from my mouth.
Next my husband gently pushed me onto my back and placed kisses down my body, stopping between my legs. No one has ever licked my pussy and given me as much pleasure as my husband has. I had to beg him to stop many times in order to not have an orgasm. I’m so afraid that one of these times, he’s not going to stop and that he will make me cum, and then punish me for not having better self control (yep, that’s another fantasy), but this night was just about us loving each other. Tonight, when I begged him to stop, he did.
He then gently lifted my arms and pulled me up to him so that we were facing each other. This is my favorite way to make love because of the intimacy it allows.
There was so much passion between us this night. We groped each other, kissed, rubbed, rocked the bed. The love we have is undeniable. We were both feeling the moment. He was getting close to orgasm. I was ready to give up my denial time so that he and I could orgasm together. I told him I wanted to cum, that I wanted to feel his cock explode with my pussy. I asked if I could cum. He wanted me to as much as I wanted to. I know he almost said yes but, he, in his infinite wisdom and knowing what is best for me, shook his head no and pushed me down on the bed and before I realized what was happening, he had his cock in my ass and yelled out in ecstasy as he came, shooting his load deep into my ass, a look of total pleasure on his face. I knew he made the right decision and I’m grateful for his strength when I am weak.
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My Body Aches To Watch Him With Her
I have loved him for 10 years and have been married for just over 1 year. There’s never been another man in my life with whom I’ve been able to share my deepest desire. I was embarrassed about it for a long time, thinking there was something wrong with me. I had to be some kind of freak. I wanted desperately to watch this man I love with every fiber of my being, having sex with another woman while being denied sexual pleasure from him.
This desire consumes my every thought. It has become an obsession that has my panties wet all the time. He wants to watch me me another man but I have no interest in other men. My only interest is in seeing him sexually please other women and watching him as he is pleased by them in return.
At first, I want them to pretend I’m not even there. My presence in insignificant. I want to watch as he slowly kisses her neck and then moves down and gently pulls her nipples with his teeth before moving down her stomach and teasing her with his tongue. He can work magic with his tongue. I want him to pull her pussy lips open and watch as he licks up, down, and around her clit. I want to see her as she gasps in with ecstasy and starts grinding into my husband’s face.
I want to see her sex juice all over his face when he lifts his head. I want to hear her uncontrollable moans as he sends shockwaves through her entire body. I can’t help it, I know I’m not supposed to, but I touch myself. I’m so aroused watching my husband make another woman cum. My pussy is literally aching with desire.
Now it’s my husband’s turn. I wait with anticipation as she gets on her knees in front of the man I love. The pre cum is hanging from his cock. God, I want to taste it. I want to lick it off of him but I know it’s not for me. Tonight, a far more deserving woman will taste my husband’s juice.
As she takes his cock into her mouth, I feel like I’m going to explode, but I know better. I am only allowed to edge. My pussy is dripping wet as she expertly blows my husband’s dick. The look on his face is pure lust. I can see the animal coming out in him and I know that the moment I have been waiting for for so long is finally going to happen. My husband is going to put his throbbing cock into another woman’s pussy. This woman is beautiful and firm. Long dark hair, size C breasts which are 100% real and don’t sag. She has a perfect body. I know her pussy is going to be nice and tight around his cock. He held her close and kissed her, lightly biting on her bottom lip as he pulled away. She laid on the bed and spread her legs so that I could see how wet she was. And now, it was about to happen, my husband was going to slide his cock into another woman’s pussy for the first time in 10 years and the most excited person, the most sexually aroused person in that room, was me.
Both my husband and the woman he was fucking moaned as he entered her. My breathing became heavier as I continued to become more and more aroused. The kook on my husband’s face was animalistic. They fucked in every possible position. Then my husband looked at me and told me to get on the bed. I was so excited because I thought that he was going to fuck me as well. But instead, he had me lay on my stomach and the other woman straddled me with her ass facing my husband. He rammed her from behind with such force. The entire bed moved and the pressure of their movements caused me to have a mind-blowing orgasm.
He continued fucking her like this until she moaned in ecstasy. My husband told me that I needed to beg her to cum all over his dock, so I did. I told her that I wanted her to cover his cock with her creamy juices. She came hard. They finished their encounter with my husband spraying his cum down the crack of her ass as I stopped it all as it fell down over her hot swollen pussy. She told me that the only way I would be getting my husband’s cum from now on would be as it dripped from her pussy or asshole. It was an incredible night and I look forward to many more.
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